Pain can be a helpful indication that something has gone wrong somewhere. The deep throbbing ache on the side of my right knee kept me awake a few nights ago and I could barely stand up. As I hobbled around in misery in the wee hours of the morning, I replayed in my mind the events of the previous day to try to understand the cause.
It was my elder daughter, Nicole’s birthday, and we had a tasty home-cooked lunch and cake to celebrate. I was in a good mood. I then logged into the HG Live Sale, and shortly after, when a practitioner popped in the chat section to announce his presence, my mood started to deteriorate noticeably. His comments irritated me, and has done so for quite a while. As the session progressed my irritation grew until I exited the session feeling put out. After the session, I noticed a twinge and, a dull ache on the side of my right knee. I thought it strange as I didn’t do anything strenuous, so I brushed it off. At around midnight the pain had intensified.
By morning, after a restless night, I knew that one way or another, I had to resolve this long-standing issue with this practitioner. Thinking about it, my grouse stemmed from way back (6-7 years ago) when I learned about an arrangement between him and our Master. By not resolving the issue and trying to sweep it under the carpet, I allowed it to smolder and build-up for years until even his comments and messages grated on me.
I Telegrammed him later that day and came clean, letting him know my issues with some of his actions and how a specific event quite a while back had colored my perception and dealings with him. I admitted that I was abrupt in my responses to him and even declined an invitation to meet up with him, using some excuse to disguise the fact that I was just not comfortable engaging with him. Finally, I said that I recognized and accepted that my irritation and negativity was due to my lack of alignment with the 3 Principles and apologized for my shortcomings.
I expected an indignant, defensive or even no response. But he was very gracious and thanked me for being open and honest with him, saying it takes a lot of courage for each of us to confront our issues in our cultivation journey and did not hold anything against me. He took the time to explain what transpired and even apologized for the effects of his action on me.
Feeling a little sheepish but ecstatic with his positive response, I told him that I was just so glad that we had begun to clear the air between us. I also shared with him that my knee was 80% less painful since we started this conversation. Amazing but not surprising.
Reflections
I would like to thank Source and our Master for all his teachings which are relevant to this episode.
- Judgement and criticism have no place when trying to align with the Source.
- Mood swings indicate energy imbalances within the body which in the long run can damage our body.
- The pain in my knee is a sign of energetic imbalance due to the built-up and unresolved negativity caused by my ego and lack of alignment with the 3Ps.
- Using borrowed energy from 5E practice must be channeled to impose a higher vibration on the lower personality i.e. refining mind and character.
- I must increase my energy potency in-line with refining my character to be able to see things in a better way. I also realized that I must cultivate detachment.
- Lack of Vesica Pisces with HG practitioners affects Master, the School and the environment.
Pain can be a helpful indication that something has gone wrong somewhere. The deep throbbing ache on the side of my right knee kept me awake a few nights ago and I could barely stand up. As I hobbled around in misery in the wee hours of the morning, I replayed in my mind the events of the previous day to try to understand the cause.
It was my elder daughter, Nicole’s birthday, and we had a tasty home-cooked lunch and cake to celebrate. I was in a good mood. I then logged into the HG Live Sale, and shortly after, when a practitioner popped in the chat section to announce his presence, my mood started to deteriorate noticeably. His comments irritated me, and has done so for quite a while. As the session progressed my irritation grew until I exited the session feeling put out. After the session, I noticed a twinge and, a dull ache on the side of my right knee. I thought it strange as I didn’t do anything strenuous, so I brushed it off. At around midnight the pain had intensified.
By morning, after a restless night, I knew that one way or another, I had to resolve this long-standing issue with this practitioner. Thinking about it, my grouse stemmed from way back (6-7 years ago) when I learned about an arrangement between him and our Master. By not resolving the issue and trying to sweep it under the carpet, I allowed it to smolder and build-up for years until even his comments and messages grated on me.
I Telegrammed him later that day and came clean, letting him know my issues with some of his actions and how a specific event quite a while back had colored my perception and dealings with him. I admitted that I was abrupt in my responses to him and even declined an invitation to meet up with him, using some excuse to disguise the fact that I was just not comfortable engaging with him. Finally, I said that I recognized and accepted that my irritation and negativity was due to my lack of alignment with the 3 Principles and apologized for my shortcomings.
I expected an indignant, defensive or even no response. But he was very gracious and thanked me for being open and honest with him, saying it takes a lot of courage for each of us to confront our issues in our cultivation journey and did not hold anything against me. He took the time to explain what transpired and even apologized for the effects of his action on me.
Feeling a little sheepish but ecstatic with his positive response, I told him that I was just so glad that we had begun to clear the air between us. I also shared with him that my knee was 80% less painful since we started this conversation. Amazing but not surprising.
Reflections
I would like to thank Source and our Master for all his teachings which are relevant to this episode.