Aaron and I used to be colleagues in my previous company. We stayed in touch after I left the company and are able to have meaningful conversations. It was not always this way. When we first started our working relationship, it was painful and unpleasant as we had constant disagreements and clashes that took a toll on our working relationship.
Prior to this, I went through a difficult separation with my then Line Manager. He was making impractical and unreasonable demands. Feeling undermined, victimised and pressured, I was angry and frustrated and carried these sentiments into my previous organisation. As human beings are equipped with the ability to sense frequencies, both positive and negative, Aaron sensed my anger and latent aggression. Although he intended to collaborate when we first met, the latent aggression that was embedded in my energy field collided with the latent aggression found in his field resulting from years and years of work frustration. The collision of fields created a personality clash. This clash was further aggravated when I approached work with an aggressive and willful stance due to my fear of being undermined. This fear was reinforced as I was one of the few woman Managers functioning within a male dominated environment.
Three months later, conceding to the damage that our clashes had caused, I made peace with Aaron with the help of a colleague and made changes to my work behavior to prevent future clashes. Although our work interaction became more pleasant and amicable thereafter, there was one issue that remained unresolved: Why does a CLT practitioner who has the capability of cleansing one's field has difficulty in removing the latent aggression from her field that subsequently led to personality clashes?
The answers came to me several years later as I continued my journey as a CLT student. While I had learnt and incorporated the CLT practice into my daily life to help me to decontaminate my energy field, my understanding of the Laws of the Universe which encompass the 3 Principles, Love, Truth and Selflessness in my life was lagging behind.
Growing up as a child, I had learnt the human expression of love which was conditional, self-interest driven and confined to what I could see. This human expression of love carried elements of judgment, control and intention and was mixed with the emotions of fear, anger and resentment. As I did not have the CLT teachings, I continued to express humanly love as that was what all that I knew. These emotions were imprinted onto my energy fields and probably inherited genes with such disposition. As this genetic disposition controls the way I express myself and deal with my relationships, this was the invisible third party in my relationship with my previous Line Manager. As I had failed to correct my expression of Love, this harmful genetic disposition continued to lurk in my other relationships. While the severity may defer depending on my level of consciousness, it became a self-perpetuating pattern that kept repeating itself.
In the CLT teachings, there is a fundamental law that states that you cannot repair that which you cannot detect for yourself. As I remain unconscious of this violation due to poor energy management, I could not commence the repair work to change this genetic disposition.
As I complete this article, I realised that I had unconsciously allowed my genes to go into locked down mode making it impossible for me to make choices beyond my own genetic disposition. Even if I did feel love and wanted to respect for freewill, this expression of love would be tainted by my existing genetic disposition until I make conscious effort to remove the old imprints that were previously stored in my genes and replace it with something more wholesome, Source Love. I now see that I have a lot of repair work ahead of me if I desire to permanently remove this invisible third party.
I must say that this issue has eluded me for a long time until I sat down to rework this article to help out my team member who was looking for contributions to our HG website. She evoked a sense of compassion within me to which gave in to and I truly believe it was this compassion that had led me to this insight.
I admit that I am a work-in-progress and will continue to be one. Thanks for the CLT teachings and practice, I get glimpses of my dysfunctional genetic disposition that undermines me. Some of which I have mustered the energy to restore while others I need to invest the time and space to restore as it is very deeply embedded within me. My struggles against my genetic disposition have been painful but I remain hopeful that I will triumph someday with the CLT teachings. So, don’t lose hope. Just brave the storm and keep chugging along like I did as the journey is one that is worthwhile taking.
Aaron and I used to be colleagues in my previous company. We stayed in touch after I left the company and are able to have meaningful conversations. It was not always this way. When we first started our working relationship, it was painful and unpleasant as we had constant disagreements and clashes that took a toll on our working relationship.
Prior to this, I went through a difficult separation with my then Line Manager. He was making impractical and unreasonable demands. Feeling undermined, victimised and pressured, I was angry and frustrated and carried these sentiments into my previous organisation. As human beings are equipped with the ability to sense frequencies, both positive and negative, Aaron sensed my anger and latent aggression. Although he intended to collaborate when we first met, the latent aggression that was embedded in my energy field collided with the latent aggression found in his field resulting from years and years of work frustration. The collision of fields created a personality clash. This clash was further aggravated when I approached work with an aggressive and willful stance due to my fear of being undermined. This fear was reinforced as I was one of the few woman Managers functioning within a male dominated environment.
Three months later, conceding to the damage that our clashes had caused, I made peace with Aaron with the help of a colleague and made changes to my work behavior to prevent future clashes. Although our work interaction became more pleasant and amicable thereafter, there was one issue that remained unresolved: Why does a CLT practitioner who has the capability of cleansing one's field has difficulty in removing the latent aggression from her field that subsequently led to personality clashes?
The answers came to me several years later as I continued my journey as a CLT student. While I had learnt and incorporated the CLT practice into my daily life to help me to decontaminate my energy field, my understanding of the Laws of the Universe which encompass the 3 Principles, Love, Truth and Selflessness in my life was lagging behind.
Growing up as a child, I had learnt the human expression of love which was conditional, self-interest driven and confined to what I could see. This human expression of love carried elements of judgment, control and intention and was mixed with the emotions of fear, anger and resentment. As I did not have the CLT teachings, I continued to express humanly love as that was what all that I knew. These emotions were imprinted onto my energy fields and probably inherited genes with such disposition. As this genetic disposition controls the way I express myself and deal with my relationships, this was the invisible third party in my relationship with my previous Line Manager. As I had failed to correct my expression of Love, this harmful genetic disposition continued to lurk in my other relationships. While the severity may defer depending on my level of consciousness, it became a self-perpetuating pattern that kept repeating itself.
In the CLT teachings, there is a fundamental law that states that you cannot repair that which you cannot detect for yourself. As I remain unconscious of this violation due to poor energy management, I could not commence the repair work to change this genetic disposition.
As I complete this article, I realised that I had unconsciously allowed my genes to go into locked down mode making it impossible for me to make choices beyond my own genetic disposition. Even if I did feel love and wanted to respect for freewill, this expression of love would be tainted by my existing genetic disposition until I make conscious effort to remove the old imprints that were previously stored in my genes and replace it with something more wholesome, Source Love. I now see that I have a lot of repair work ahead of me if I desire to permanently remove this invisible third party.
I must say that this issue has eluded me for a long time until I sat down to rework this article to help out my team member who was looking for contributions to our HG website. She evoked a sense of compassion within me to which gave in to and I truly believe it was this compassion that had led me to this insight.
I admit that I am a work-in-progress and will continue to be one. Thanks for the CLT teachings and practice, I get glimpses of my dysfunctional genetic disposition that undermines me. Some of which I have mustered the energy to restore while others I need to invest the time and space to restore as it is very deeply embedded within me. My struggles against my genetic disposition have been painful but I remain hopeful that I will triumph someday with the CLT teachings. So, don’t lose hope. Just brave the storm and keep chugging along like I did as the journey is one that is worthwhile taking.