Several years ago, I had an emotionally charged experience that resulted in me developing chronic inflammation. My traumatic experience began when I joined a traditional organization. My ex-boss, Christina, whom I got to know through a mutual friend, had recruited me into the organization. Our initial interactions were limited to pleasantries and small talk before we became colleagues. As we worked together, I saw a side of her that I did not see before. Hidden behind the strong willed, confident and worldly façade was an insecure woman. Initially, her insecurities surfaced in requests for detailed accounts of delegated work. When work stress grew, her friendly demeanor was replaced with dominant and antagonistic behaviors. Her high expectations drove the team and when they fell short, she became unkind. She denied them of support and guidance that they needed for course correction. In its place were criticism and shaming. Some team members were even ostracized for not meeting her exacting standards.
Two years later, upon completing my commitments, I left the organization but I did not come out unscathed; I experienced severe chest pains and was on the verge of a heart attack. Emotionally, I was consumed by rage, resentment and bitterness having experienced prolonged work stress and pressure. My mental and emotional bodies were on fire. I was a living wreck.
Stabilizing the Physical and Mental Bodies
Determined to heal, I set out on a journey seeking answers. Being a mental person, I tried to think my way out of this situation at first but instead, wore myself out trying to figure out what had happened. I sunk deeper into my own negative inner vortex and my lessons continued to elude me. I was still angry and disenchanted.
I then made a decision to handle my predicament like eating an elephant, one bite at a time. I focused on recovering physically and adopted measures to reduce my inflammation. Coincidentally, the school, Heaven’s Gift Academy of Crystal Light Transmission, released information on how to prevent/overcome inflammation at that time; so I implemented changes in my diet based on what I had learnt.
At the same time, I increased my CLT 5E practice to borrow energy as well as clear my energetic backlog and contaminated energy field. I learnt that in order to see things clearly, I needed to build and conserve energy. As an energetic backlog is information/frequency linked to issues recorded in one’s field, such backlogs would manifest unpleasant events such as incurable disease, disharmony etc., so clearing my backlog made sense. This would buy me time to resolve my dilemma. Clearing my contaminated field promised a clearer mind.
I parked aside my fear of a heart attack as I knew that otherwise, my brain would continue to send fearful signals to my heart which would, in turn, broadcast these chaotic signals to my cells. The resulting incoherent field would slow down/interfere with my healing.
12 months later, I managed to bring down my inflammation but I was still not out of the woods. Energy conservation and physical measures had paid dividends; I was less fearful and could easily stay calm. However, I was still disturbed by the anger and resentment that raged within. I had more inner work to do.
The Birth of Empathy
As fate would have it, I encountered an old friend who knew Christina from her earlier years. What I learnt about her past made me realize that she was a victim of years of negative conditioning. She had entered into a cycle of self-punishment and inflicted pain upon others due to her trauma, which she had difficulty handling. Having no access to spiritual teachings kept her locked in this vicious cycle. This understanding led to the birth of empathy for her predicament. I had found the reason to let go of my anger and resentment and allowed love to surface for another suffering soul.
The Insights
As love permeated my heart, insights came. I could see the similarities between my own life with that of Christina. I, too, had struggled with inner insecurity and it had driven me to the ground. I found myself consistently over-compensating by working long hours to get things done, not giving my body sufficient rest under the pretext of building self-worth. Like Christina, I did not have self-love and self-worth.
Looking at Christina’s life, I could see the detrimental effects of not learning self-love and self-worth - it had created a life of pain and unhappiness. While she emerged a woman with means, she left behind a legacy of emotional prisoners, haunted by anger and contempt. I had the potential of playing out a similar destiny.
There is a universal principle that states that internal frequency pulls in an external event. I had manifested this event to witness the harmful frequencies that lived within me and how destructive they could be.
I read a passage found in our learning resource that stated: “Our Creator told us that everything that He has created is perfect and it is only our perspective that is imperfect. We derive our judgment that creation is imperfect from our experience of tribulations and sufferings. Shouldn't we stop and think that karma could be an intelligent adjustment of aberrant resonances residing in our DNA. The purpose might very well be to safeguard the perpetuation of our species and the genome itself by allowing the choice of release of the aberrant resonances to the surface rather than implode it within the body.”
Viewed from a higher perspective, this experience was simply karma’s intelligent adjustment of the aberrant frequencies found in my DNA. Christina’s appearance was a means to transcend these harmful resonances. Failing to spiritually digest this principle, my ego got in the way and distorted the event as a personal attack and degradation. My mind played the victim and evoked rage, resentment and bitterness that kept me trapped. The negative emotions formed the emotional “toxins” that made me emotionally and physically sick. Had I enlightened to this principle earlier, I would have saved myself from travelling down this dark rabbit hole.
The Choice of Surrender and Forgiveness
With the illusion lifted, I was faced with a choice. I could continue to play the victim, deny the existence of this harmful frequency and maintain the position of having been wronged. Or I could accept this event as karma’s intelligent adjustment of my own inner frequency and take responsibility for correcting them. This path offered inner peace with the shedding of the rage, and bitterness that I felt within. The choice became obvious.
Forgiveness came to mind. This journey helped me see that forgiveness is not a mental but a heart centered exercise that involves developing love for self and others. It is only when we develop love and compassion for another soul that we could forgive them for their trespasses. When we develop self-love, we make the choice to free ourselves from our own anger, guilt and bitterness.
I choose to forgive Christina and myself. While it did not nullify what she had done, it allowed me to develop and express love for another suffering soul. I surrendered my negative emotions to our Creator and forgave myself to free my own Soul in favor of inner peace and healing.
As anger, betrayal and resentment began to leave me, I saw improvements in my own mental clarity and emotional stability. My inflammation died down and my chest pains ceased. I was convinced that I had made the right choice.
Conclusion
Having access to borrowed energy and spiritual teachings had enlightened me to the spiritual principles that escaped me earlier. With God’s grace and the universe playing its part to synchronize information and insights, I arrived at the point of forgiveness and surrender to free myself from this emotional bondage.
My journey has been painful but significant. I had to find the reason to love, develop compassion for the perpetrators of my suffering and forgive them and myself for what had happened. When I engaged in inner work to free myself from the bondage, I gave myself permission to heal and grow. I made the choice to walk down the path of inner peace and freedom instead of staying in the dark rabbit hole.
Several years ago, I had an emotionally charged experience that resulted in me developing chronic inflammation. My traumatic experience began when I joined a traditional organization. My ex-boss, Christina, whom I got to know through a mutual friend, had recruited me into the organization. Our initial interactions were limited to pleasantries and small talk before we became colleagues. As we worked together, I saw a side of her that I did not see before. Hidden behind the strong willed, confident and worldly façade was an insecure woman. Initially, her insecurities surfaced in requests for detailed accounts of delegated work. When work stress grew, her friendly demeanor was replaced with dominant and antagonistic behaviors. Her high expectations drove the team and when they fell short, she became unkind. She denied them of support and guidance that they needed for course correction. In its place were criticism and shaming. Some team members were even ostracized for not meeting her exacting standards.
Two years later, upon completing my commitments, I left the organization but I did not come out unscathed; I experienced severe chest pains and was on the verge of a heart attack. Emotionally, I was consumed by rage, resentment and bitterness having experienced prolonged work stress and pressure. My mental and emotional bodies were on fire. I was a living wreck.
Stabilizing the Physical and Mental Bodies
Determined to heal, I set out on a journey seeking answers. Being a mental person, I tried to think my way out of this situation at first but instead, wore myself out trying to figure out what had happened. I sunk deeper into my own negative inner vortex and my lessons continued to elude me. I was still angry and disenchanted.
I then made a decision to handle my predicament like eating an elephant, one bite at a time. I focused on recovering physically and adopted measures to reduce my inflammation. Coincidentally, the school, Heaven’s Gift Academy of Crystal Light Transmission, released information on how to prevent/overcome inflammation at that time; so I implemented changes in my diet based on what I had learnt.
At the same time, I increased my CLT 5E practice to borrow energy as well as clear my energetic backlog and contaminated energy field. I learnt that in order to see things clearly, I needed to build and conserve energy. As an energetic backlog is information/frequency linked to issues recorded in one’s field, such backlogs would manifest unpleasant events such as incurable disease, disharmony etc., so clearing my backlog made sense. This would buy me time to resolve my dilemma. Clearing my contaminated field promised a clearer mind.
I parked aside my fear of a heart attack as I knew that otherwise, my brain would continue to send fearful signals to my heart which would, in turn, broadcast these chaotic signals to my cells. The resulting incoherent field would slow down/interfere with my healing.
12 months later, I managed to bring down my inflammation but I was still not out of the woods. Energy conservation and physical measures had paid dividends; I was less fearful and could easily stay calm. However, I was still disturbed by the anger and resentment that raged within. I had more inner work to do.
The Birth of Empathy
As fate would have it, I encountered an old friend who knew Christina from her earlier years. What I learnt about her past made me realize that she was a victim of years of negative conditioning. She had entered into a cycle of self-punishment and inflicted pain upon others due to her trauma, which she had difficulty handling. Having no access to spiritual teachings kept her locked in this vicious cycle. This understanding led to the birth of empathy for her predicament. I had found the reason to let go of my anger and resentment and allowed love to surface for another suffering soul.
The Insights
As love permeated my heart, insights came. I could see the similarities between my own life with that of Christina. I, too, had struggled with inner insecurity and it had driven me to the ground. I found myself consistently over-compensating by working long hours to get things done, not giving my body sufficient rest under the pretext of building self-worth. Like Christina, I did not have self-love and self-worth.
Looking at Christina’s life, I could see the detrimental effects of not learning self-love and self-worth - it had created a life of pain and unhappiness. While she emerged a woman with means, she left behind a legacy of emotional prisoners, haunted by anger and contempt. I had the potential of playing out a similar destiny.
There is a universal principle that states that internal frequency pulls in an external event. I had manifested this event to witness the harmful frequencies that lived within me and how destructive they could be.
I read a passage found in our learning resource that stated: “Our Creator told us that everything that He has created is perfect and it is only our perspective that is imperfect. We derive our judgment that creation is imperfect from our experience of tribulations and sufferings. Shouldn't we stop and think that karma could be an intelligent adjustment of aberrant resonances residing in our DNA. The purpose might very well be to safeguard the perpetuation of our species and the genome itself by allowing the choice of release of the aberrant resonances to the surface rather than implode it within the body.”
Viewed from a higher perspective, this experience was simply karma’s intelligent adjustment of the aberrant frequencies found in my DNA. Christina’s appearance was a means to transcend these harmful resonances. Failing to spiritually digest this principle, my ego got in the way and distorted the event as a personal attack and degradation. My mind played the victim and evoked rage, resentment and bitterness that kept me trapped. The negative emotions formed the emotional “toxins” that made me emotionally and physically sick. Had I enlightened to this principle earlier, I would have saved myself from travelling down this dark rabbit hole.
The Choice of Surrender and Forgiveness
With the illusion lifted, I was faced with a choice. I could continue to play the victim, deny the existence of this harmful frequency and maintain the position of having been wronged. Or I could accept this event as karma’s intelligent adjustment of my own inner frequency and take responsibility for correcting them. This path offered inner peace with the shedding of the rage, and bitterness that I felt within. The choice became obvious.
Forgiveness came to mind. This journey helped me see that forgiveness is not a mental but a heart centered exercise that involves developing love for self and others. It is only when we develop love and compassion for another soul that we could forgive them for their trespasses. When we develop self-love, we make the choice to free ourselves from our own anger, guilt and bitterness.
I choose to forgive Christina and myself. While it did not nullify what she had done, it allowed me to develop and express love for another suffering soul. I surrendered my negative emotions to our Creator and forgave myself to free my own Soul in favor of inner peace and healing.
As anger, betrayal and resentment began to leave me, I saw improvements in my own mental clarity and emotional stability. My inflammation died down and my chest pains ceased. I was convinced that I had made the right choice.
Conclusion
Having access to borrowed energy and spiritual teachings had enlightened me to the spiritual principles that escaped me earlier. With God’s grace and the universe playing its part to synchronize information and insights, I arrived at the point of forgiveness and surrender to free myself from this emotional bondage.
My journey has been painful but significant. I had to find the reason to love, develop compassion for the perpetrators of my suffering and forgive them and myself for what had happened. When I engaged in inner work to free myself from the bondage, I gave myself permission to heal and grow. I made the choice to walk down the path of inner peace and freedom instead of staying in the dark rabbit hole.